Alice is wondering...

After 3 days of not being able to connect to the wi-fi in the neighbourhood I am back again! So I can waste my time on facebook, watch The Walking Dead from the beginning and keep you updated (not that anyone is waiting for that but I'm still going to bother you with the stories of my life). So everything is going in the good direction. I work a lot, but that's good for my next salary because my recent one is a shit due to my 0 hour contract and because I went on holiday. I've been promised that my next contract will be full time so I will get all the privilages of it. Next thing is that the apartment is officialy just mine because my flatmate moved out without letting me know when I was in Italy. Coward. I could tell you so much about why I think she deserves all of her upcoming problems but I don't want to waste my energy on that. It's just that some people should be sent to the moon on a one-way ticket. And she's one of them. Well, next good thing is, that we...

Italia. I fell in love with that coutry so easily. I fit in so naturally, nothing was able to bring me down. I had my moments of glorious oblivion, I was taking everything as it was. The hospitality of the people is amazing. The whole atmosphere there.. Milano, what a majestic city! The architecture brings you down to your knees and makes you want to pray to the gods. All the small streets with big buildings, reminding you of the greatness of that country in the past. Doesn't matter if it rains or not, Luini is offering you the most delightful panzerotti, all the caffee's are waiting for you with perfect cappuccino. But I really need to mention going into Piemonte, to mom of Mattia. I was a bit nervous, come on, it's an Italian mother, an Italian mother of my Italian boyfriend. But from the first moment that I met her.. oh, what a fantastic person! She really made me feel like home. She has a cute house with cats, dogs and a big field with horses. She lives by a river in a ...

Let me see, from all the things I had in plans for Today, only cleaning worked out. Oh how I love it when other people don't care if you had other plans or not, but they just change their mind in the very last possible moment and let you kindly know that actually they are not coming. Yeah, it's always better to spend the evening alone and relax than to spend it with me and let me get you relaxed. I ain't gonna lie, I may have a dirty mind but I also have a lot of good intentions. And where the fuck are yours? I bet they are burned out along with that gram or two you're gonna smoke tinight. Alone. My dear Lord, I'm trying so hard to be a nice girl, but what the hell, don't nice girls have boundries as well? I've been told that if it's too much for me I am allowed to say ''fuck you, you piss me off", but hey, is it really what you want? Can't we avoid that by not making stupid statements like ''I will come tomorrow!" and day...

Everything fell into its right place. Last week was totally all about getting my problems solved. I can concentrate now again only on the things that interest me and make me feel good, instead of thinking what should I do to feel good. I woke up today and there was nothing on my mind to care about besides what to eat for the dinner (by the way: don't you never ever buy Chicken Ragou from Lidl, it sucks big time!). I had a breakfast, got back to bed, woke up, cleaned Nancy's cage, went to Lidl, had a dinner aaaand watched some movies. I found also time to take some self portraits, most of them not suitable for facebook, altough I am considering to put one of them under this post. Anyway, the sun was shining and I was feeling just happy. Sure, I've got my monthly girly stupid shit thing but hey, it's also a good sign ;) While doing the dishes I was listening to Jenna Marbles' ''I hate being a grown up'' and it was epic. My day today was nothin...

Recently a lot has been going on. Things easily could pull me under, I could not resist no matter how hard I tried. The echoes of some of them are still revolving around like a creepy nightmare. Sometimes I think that the only way to escape from them is to run away, but the reasonable voice in my head tells me that I just need to solve. Solve. Over and fucking over again. It's like problems love me. I will tell you why: because I can't keep my mouth shut. As I already said before, I have a very quick reaction to bullshit. You may call it a ''short temper''. It has always been a big issue for me because people- they simply love to live with their eyes closed, it's so easy. Seeing things as they really are hurts more, and I think that it's my main issue. You say ''I'm depressed''. I say ''I am fucking sad because I feel underrated''. You can find everything a name so easily that it freaks me out. Say what you feel,...