Alice is wondering...

Queens Day. I am wearing an orange dress and having a beer/wine in the garden. Yes, I had to work today, but that was in the morning, let's not talk about that. I am looking at the blue sky, shooting some pics, trying to figure out manual mode, but (thank God) it will take a long time. And as I said, I like to play! Well yeah, about the previous post. I think I am overreacting, because.. Actually you know.. Spring is here again! Sun, fun, love. Would be sweet to share it with someone. But the best I can get is first dates. Nothing more. Really, ever. Damn, am I that scary? I thought I am damn charming in a freaky way. Ok ok, I'll just shut up, because now I sound like a desperate teenager. But come on! P.S. I had to take pics of all of my niece's plastic animals- and she has a lot of them! xxx

Roy, my handsome nephew(click!) I have to admit. There is one subject difficult for me to wonder about, because no matter how much I think, it's still too complicated. Relationships. It's not even that I blame guys for doing something wrong, God, no. I am too honest with myself to say ''it's yor fault!''. But just the fact of getting into antoher relation with no future. Why? I love affection, I need it. But when things get serious, it's not that fun anymore. So what, now you love me, but we both know that it's not going to last forever, we're not going to grow old  together. Then why start anything? Just to have fun now? To get to know your friends, parents, environment, beautiful mind and then be ripped off and then have to mend all the broken pieces? I know, I know. I am too young to say things like that, but I will tell you something. When I look at my hands I see bruises (from work, I burned myself so many times), I see my...

She looks just like my mom. Yeah, just like when she was greeting me at the door in the middle of the night, when I was coming back from some party in ''not-so-sober-state''. Thank God, things have change and now when I come back in the middle of the night, the only ones to greet me at the door are the cat and the dog. I mean, I love my parents but come on! How long can you listen to things like ''why are you wearing pants on Christmas Eve. It's CHRISTMAS! It's only once a year''. Yep mom, I think Jesus will love me less for wearing pants. So.. Yesterday evening I discovered that actually, there is some so-called ''night life'' in Almere! I've been living here since September (okay, I will count it from end of October beacuse that's when I've been ''raised from the death''..) and I never dared to explore night part of the ''big city''. Thanks to Robert , now I know- there are places to...

Playing with it just like kids play with toys. I love it, love love love it! Click the pic. <3 Oh yeah, and the flower has a funny story behind. ''Life and death, heaven and hell''. Remember! ;)

Oh my dear Lord, I can't believe it! You can't imagine how happy I am. Let me begin with saying, that I was always sure that if it happens then maybe in few years. And now what? I did it! I earned it, deserved it! It's mine and no one can take away my happiness. That's the first picture that I took with my brand new Canon! Not epic, not breath-taking.  It's just the first one. <click on it!> And oh, believe me, there will be lots more of them ;) That's only the beginning!

kiss me hard before you go Having a day off from work- that's what I was waiting for! I could have a drink yesterday, go to bed late, sleep until 11 p.m., have a late breakfast (or let's call it lunch acutally) and wear my causal clothes. God, how I hate my uniform with that sky-blue shirt. I mean, wearing it with jeans is okay, but wearing it with my HolidayInnExpress-make-your-butt-looks-fatter-than-it-is pants... Hate it! So, today I've been wondering  about music tastes. If your answer to ''what kind of music do you like?'' is ''I like everything'', please, don't talk to me. You can listen to everything, but you can't acutally like  everything. I mean, at work in the kitchen I have a stereo. I don't want to be selfish so I don't bring my Cd's, we put on a radio. Well I would listen to 3fm, but the signal is to weak.. so I choose Veronica.  Very often they play some rock music, but let's admit it-...

So I am having a coffe with a croissant (yep, irony, I baked so many of them at work but I'm eating one at home), checking what happened on facebook when I wasn't online (not much people, you're having a free Sunday and still doing nothing?) and watching my niece, dancing to the soundtrack from ''Rio''. She has some serious moves! The sun is shining and I am trying to remember how does it feel like to sit in the garden with a cold beer, because it's so hot. Well, I know it feels great, but summer.. I just started to doubt will it come this year. We can't even make it to the spring, and I'm dreaming about summer! Damn, the washing machine ended its cycle. I need to take my uniform out, to dry. But oh my God, it's upstairs.. so many stairs and me so tired. I'm not lazy, I've just been walking enough today. I can't wait for my small holiday in Poland. 12th May, come faster! Class reunion, visiting friends, catching up in the c...

                                                                   I have to honestly say that my attitude at work has turned into ''ironic proffesionalism''. I do everything, the best that I can, so I know that if I'll hear any complains- not my fault. So that's the professional part. The ironic part is- turn everything into an awkward joke (at least in my head only, if it's not suitable for the situation). So I do a lot of strange things, like: I grab an oven mitt (glove), do a funny voice (sorta Jess from '' New Girl '' and talk smart with the glove like goddamn Dr. Phil. I ask questions with it, like ''What is wrong? Do you want to talk about it?'' and I'm better. Then one of my bosses comes, shows me something that wasn't done the way he would like it to be done and I do that ''OH MY GOD!'' with a face like I am ...

                               I finally got some sleep and I'm trying not to do too much, because I've got 4 days of hard work in front of me. And by hard work I mean really hard work. Thank God my manager gave me enough helping hands for those days, so it shouldn't be as difficult as it was last time. ''Treat yourself good'' is what is echoing inside my head. I am wondering what does it mean. Does it mean buying nice clothes, eating luxury sweets and visiting spa twice a month? Well, not for me. It's more about getting a lot of sleep on my free day, listening to nice music while eating a healthy, colourful breakfast and not rushing with things that have to happen anyway. Sometimes I get stressed by some unpleasant situation. I sit and think how is it going to evolve and my head gets full with anxiety. Why? No matter how much we are thinking about some things, they going to bloom and whatever comes out of...

So, about that.. I got myself a new blog-  one written in english because I've been receiving some feedbacks about my polish blog- that it's simply impossible to translate my posts using google.translate, because then they make no sense.  Well, okay, if anyone is curious what is Alicia wondering about.. There you go! If you really want to know, here I am, ready to tell you everything. Okay- almost everything. I want to post my pictures here too, as well as my recipes, because I'm very passionate about photography and cooking. Were to begin.. I am sitting on the sofa, drinking coffe, having a cookie with it and wondering.. when the hell is the weather going to change into blooming spring? Please, the rain, the wind and the grey sky is killing my positive thinking. Getting to the train station on my bike in the morning is like a bad joke with that wind blowing in my face. I hate it. I can't stand the fact that there are countries with beautiful weather all year long! An...