Alice is wondering...

So this is Christmas.. It is the very first Christmas that I am going to celebrate without my parents and brother. Honestly, it feels very strange. Because when you're at home, doing the ''every-year-Christmas-routine" you don't appreciate it so much. But when you leave your nest and start a whole new life, you miss that routine, you realize that, actually, it has been one of the few certain things in life. No matter what, there was always something nice to eat at the Christmas Evening supper, always some small symbolic gifts, people around that now you miss. Sounds nostalgic? Yeah, it is. But then.. You realize something else. The closer it gets to Christmas you find out that here you have your new family- your friends. Of course, not to mention my wonderful sister which is going through a lot these days, she gets even more stormy days than I do. But our plans for Christmas days come together only on 26th, but that's ok, that's more than good. Anyway, what...

My life is not slowing down, I'm still busy with an amazing amount of stuff. There is work, there is work at home, there is a huge money issue, there is an issue which actually pisses me off and which is in my minds since a long time, but it starts to grow. I hate it also that in my new apartment everything is so temporary. It's like ''oh I have a new cooking plate, but no place to put it, oh screw that, let put it there, in the most ridiculous spot, so it will annoy me everytime I walk by it". Aaaaa. I can't stand it! I want everything nice, now, not like shit. Anyway, living room look now sweet because my girl Van D. put a cute sticker on the wall, which says "Cherish yesterday, dream tomorrow, live today". I swear, that girl is such a sweetheart! At work it's ok, but my ex GM decided that I need to speak only Dutch, also with my colleagues. Well, I don't like the idea. As much as I need to, I can talk Dutch. But please, not with peopl...

So what I want to write about is Dutch people. Well, no offence, I know personally a lot of Dutch people who are super cool. Like.. awesome! Really, you can have lots of fun with them, talk long hours and do fun stuff. But I got pissed off two days ago while being on The Black Keys concert. You know, you pay 40eu to watch one of the most awesome rock bands nowadays. We didn't make it to have standing places because they were sold out like in 5 minutes, so I purchased the most awesome ones in the first ring. Like nearest to the bottom, but unfortunately sitting ones. But hey, I didn't plan to put my ass down, not even for a minute. And then, the guys come on stage and begin with ''Gold on the ceiling''. Come on! How can you keep calm and sit? We jumped up along with some other people and started to clap and cheer and scream. And then out of the blue security guy shows up telling us to take our seats because people way wayyyy in the corner cannot see the stage. I ...

So, I'm sitting in my new apartment. I'm pretending that I don't feel the dust everywhere. Because.. fuck the dust! I have an awesome new place to live, I can forget about the fucking drama from Osdorp, all the ups and downs don't bother me now. I'm starting fresh, all over again. Sure it will take more effort than before but it's totally worth it. This is my space, my own.. It feels really good. There is so much to do but I get hyperactive when I think about it. All of the possibilities that I have can, things I can choose from.. And, fuck, it's such a better location than the one before! Only hard thing is, that I have to work now a lot and then after work (or before) take care of.. oh shut up! I don't care that it's hard, I'm so excited that it gives me extra energy! Fuck, I have no chocolate, and I need it, God, give me strength, I will survive! This post is a shit because I'm tired. I mean, yeah, hyperactive so I can't sleep, but tha...