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Today we signed the contract, got keys to the apartment.. and we went crazy because we are so happy! We're moving in tomorrow after work. Omg, I am not going to be able to concentrate on work, and that's not good because it's my first day at the reception! So, you know, I just can't wait. Today when we went there.. I felt like ''I'm home''. It's our place and I want to enjoy it as much as it's only possible. I deserve it, I've earned it. Peace&quiet. Chilling. My and Stevani. Wine, cigarettes, music. And ''you-know-who". I would use his name, but there is one issue which in my head doesn't let me to do it yet. But let's face some facts, I don't want to do anything that could screw it up. He's handsome, smart, he's good to me, he cooks. When he smokes a cigarette while cooking.. it is just so sexy..! And yeah, we talked so much last night. I have to tell you, he has a beautiful mind. Man.. it's ju...

A lot is happening. I am moving to Amsterdam probably next week, I am no longer going to be the kitchen queen- they're moving me to reception and (what is the most important)- I'm seeing someone. Ok, slowly. About moving to Amsterdam first. We are ment to sign the rental contract on 29th of June. We have all the papers so we only need to give them to the real estate agent, then give the money to the lady which is renting it to us and we can move directly in. I am very excited about that! About work. Well, I've been called by my manager that uhm, actually they would like me to work at the reception from July. And I have to say that at first I wasn't so sure. I like my breakfasts! Baking, boiling, serving, taking care of the buffet.. But then I went to work, I reminded myself how much can it suck when you have to clean floor on your knees and I thought that maybe it's better the way they wan it to be. I am only afraid that I am simply too dumb to deal with r...

So, a free day, ruined from the morning on. Not that I woke up and something happened, no. I've been woken up by annoying things. First of all, question: I am free tomorrow, but can I come to work? Because I'm the only one who can save the breakfast. Well, as I said, I like to work, I do! It keeps me going forward. But tomorrow I really can't and besides, I am tired. Those five days, with having not enough people to work, with crazy deliveries, and Sunday, with that lazy guy around.. those days were quite hard to get through. Then, my good friend texted me he had some issues today and can't make it for a goodbye drink tonight. Well, shit happens, thank God we can catch up tomorrow. Then I find out that the real estate agent already called my friend about the papers for the apartment, but not me. Oh, thank you! That's far too kind from you! Another thing: I was supposed to have a very important lunch today. As it turnes out, important only for me, not for ...

So, two more days and I'm off. I'm tired. A lot of work, but on the other hand I like it. It keeps me going, keeps me busy. And now I am twice as busy as I was before. There is not a single moment when I'm not thinking about Him. I like it so much! P.S. I wanna move out, wanna move out, wanna move out. Can't wait!

I know, I know, that post about Antwerp is just not showing up, but it will.. I promise! It's just.. I am busy in my mind with something else. I was unhappy. Quite a lot somwehere inside. Someone tried very hard to play me and I almost gave in. Almost- because I met someone who's good to me. I am not used to that, so I was suspicious. How can anyone be truly nice and decent to a girl like me? Well, He is. He doesn't lie, he's funny, he makes me smile, not only laugh- I smile. He tells me nice things. For example: he likes the holes in my cheeks which appear when I smile ;) I don't like them because they make me look like a little girl, but he kisses them. He. I would like to spend more time with him. I hope it will be possible when I'm gonna start living in Amsterdam. I am always afraid to say that something is realy good. I am afraid that then it can get fucked up. But I really have a feeling that I'm having something good now.. God, please, let it be goo...

I am still creating a big post about Antwerp. Meanwhile I'm experiencing a lot of good things so it distracts me from finishing what I started. First of all I finally met a "cat person". I like dogs, recently I even started to find some of them really cute, but still- cats are the best. Another thing that comes to my mind is why the hell is the central station in such city as Amsterdam closed for the night? Come on! Even in Poland it's open. I would understand if it would be a beautiful station which has to be protected.. But it's not, it's a shitty one. But okay, I still love that city! And yes, I came out of the closet with smoking, and yes, I dance like crazy to "niggas in Paris" when I hear it in a club. Am I crazy or what? I don't know. All the people which I always meet on my way to work- today I met them on my way back home. It was funny. So.. Let me get myself together, I'm planning my new room now.. It's tricky because it...

It is going to be the longest week since.. I don't know when. I hate being anxious, I love clear situations. But thank God I will be busy, with the new apartment, with work and you know, with bello. So maybe all those things will keep me off from thinking. I'm sitting in the train now, on our way back home. The people sitting around are driving me mad. I'm happy with two small printings that I bought for my new room, can't wait to find them a place. Ok, I suck at "not thinking". Can't fight it. P.s. I will tell you all about Antwerp later on.

We're on our way to Antwerp with my sister. My stomach is a shit, had to vomit big time, but I decided not to give up and go to that goddamn city and have fun. We've been waiting for this to happen for so long, we deserve it. My personal life got a but twisted, but that's a story for whole new post. Anyways, we've found an apartment and moving in at the end of the month! 80m2, 3 rooms, kitchen, bathroom, toilet, wardrobe, a huuuge balcony and also a basement. I can't wait! P.s. superrrr singellll!

I looked up my ex on facebook today. And I really had to laugh. A bit about him and a bit about myself. About him- because he really lost it. But that's they way I leave boys behind. About myself- because I couldn't understand what did I see in him. I'm having such a great life without him! I started to look for a room/apartment yesterday evening. Like for real. I just can't stand travelling to work from Almere. And yes- I want to live in Amsterdam, I love that city! Finally- I want to become independent. It will be a big lesson for me, but I want it so bad! I already found a lot of nice offers, I will have to start checking the places my own. A lot happened last days. ... Few hours later I just made an appointment to see an apartment with Stevani tomorrow after work! Oh my God, wish us luck people, because it seems like something we're looking for! Now I'm too excited to finish this post, see you! P.S. There is a bus running to that place. Bus number 69, I to...

..he joked, winked at me and we moved on. It's hard to put on a face like nothing happened and act normal when emotions are so high, so twisted. But, oh well, there is no other way to get on. And by the way, how can I stop myself from being a bit hasty? Come on, I'm all crazy about this now! I would like to tell you so much, but I simply can't. All I can say is that it's.. ''sweeter than sugar''. I'd love to tell the world all those breath- taking stories. But I'm actually not allowed. Well, sometimes it's also a rough ride. A roller coaster. I never now what you're up to, ever. But it keeps me high. It's new for me, different. But still, you say I'm yours. I'm confused all the way, but.. I would lie if I'd say I can't stand it. I can, and I want to. P.S. I have to go bowling tomorrow with my staff from the hotel. But I will take camera and try to avoid playing by making excuses about taking p...