Alice is wondering...

Life is about being patient. I usually don't know how to chill and wait for things, so sometimes I'm acting nervous. But when I finally manage to shut up my mind.. everything turns out good. The best example took place two days ago when I wanted to make it to catch my tram in the morning so I decided not to wait for the lift but take the stairs. Oh yes, I took the stairs and I took them hard. I slipped and hit first the wall and then one of the stairs with my right fist. I came back to the door of my apartment with my hand hurting like a bitch and I had to cancel my presence at work. That's me- I just don't know how to wait. Last 3 days were amazing, or even more than amazing but I can't think of a better word to describe them. I spent them with my BatMat. We were chilling, hugging, eating together, laughing, talking.. Again he told me some things which were beautiful. We had one serious conversation which made me a bit sad.. Especially because then we had to ...

As I already mentioned so many times- my life is not bad. I have everything and if I want to, I can reach for whatever I want. It's just the small problems on the way that I need to solve. Sometimes there are things that ''we'' need to solve. Because, oh well, you can say ''this is my problem, not yours". Ok, totally agree on that, but you know that I can't close my eyes on your problems. I don't want to, I don't know how to. I see ''us'' for the future, so I will do everything what's possible to help you solve it. Maybe I am a little bit strange sometimes, that's true. But thank God I am. I am sitting in my kitchen which is a total mess today, I have Mr Koala next to me, and he thinks it's ok to write whatever I want. So today, it will be about being who you want to be. During last weeks I have learnt not to care about what people think. There is only one person who's opinion is very valuable to me becau...