If it makes you happy
So as you can see.. I made some changes here. I don't know is it better now or did I just made it look ridiculous, but this place needed a change from a long time. I mean, come on! The theme picture was me with a cigarette and I quit smoking already 2 months ago. Smoking cigarettes just to be clear.
I am proud of my progress. Today I am wearing trousers from 2 years ago. When I tried to put them on in March.. I nearly cried because there was no possibility to zip them. After 2 motnhs of gym, after eating more healthy and let's be honest- eating less, I can finally wear these pants without any problem. Not even without a problem- I also have some space left in my waist and hips.
I know, this is not my style to flatter myself. But I am just really happy with what I achieved and I feel that if I keep it going that way, maybe I will dare to wear a swimming suit this summer..!
Today we are waiting for fridge to come. I mean, I am waiting because Mattia is at work. The fridge suppose to come before 15.30 so I am all excited about it. I already received two doorbells but none of them was for me.
We changed a little bit the set up of the living room, so now I can write next to the window, looking at the weather outside. And when I look at the weather.. I feel no need to go out. It's windy and quite cold, so unless we go to the gym, my butt is not in a hurry to go out.
Work is good. I've been working a lot recently. I think it is some kind of preparing me for my full time contract/schedule which will kick in with the 1st of June. It's okay, but the more I work with different colleagues, the more I see that I am not the only one who makes small mistakes. I've been always thinking that they are smarter and more carufeul. Well yeah, some of them are more experienced but I no longer blame myself for small mistakes (especially if it's busy, I have a lot of days in a row and two of them I stand alone). No complaining, just facts. So yeah, realizing things like that makes my life easier.
You know, this time the biggest issue is BatMatt's job. We have to do something about it.
It is very hard to see your man really not willing to continue doing what he's doing, but still forcing himself to do so. It is like since we came back from our small holidays. That subject needs some time and a solution. A proper solution. Of course I will do whatever it takes to help. This is the priority for now.
Sure, some nice things are happening at the time as well. We bought a vacuum cleaner so now it's a lot easier to get all the dust together, we make plans for how to finish the house with nice details, the fridge is coming (where the hell is it?), we also plan to do something nice in June as it will be a year since we know each other..
And of course- yesterday Mattia bought tickets to see The XX upcoming Monday. I mean.. Goddamn! It was very unexpected and spontaneous, I still can not believe that on Monday we will be standing in Heineken Music Hall listening to that awesome band! Mindblowing!
I am still learning how to handle my curiosity. I make mistakes, sometimes I act like my own mother which scares the hell out of me. Yesterday I've been told something that I, myself, told my mother once. More or less ''You act like a kid, it's not about who is better or who is worse, it's not a competition''. That broke me for a moment but gave me a lesson and qucikly I had to admit it to myself. Yes, I reacted like a spoiled child and no- I don't want to feel the fear that one day I will end up like my mom. I love her, but her choices will never be mine. So one more time, I apologize, I still have to learn.
Okay okay, enough of that. I gotta go, clean the place up a bit, just to do something instead of thinking about the fridge which still didn't arrive.
Have a nice day and if you can, send me some feedback about the layout and stuff.
Love,
Alicja
I am proud of my progress. Today I am wearing trousers from 2 years ago. When I tried to put them on in March.. I nearly cried because there was no possibility to zip them. After 2 motnhs of gym, after eating more healthy and let's be honest- eating less, I can finally wear these pants without any problem. Not even without a problem- I also have some space left in my waist and hips.
I know, this is not my style to flatter myself. But I am just really happy with what I achieved and I feel that if I keep it going that way, maybe I will dare to wear a swimming suit this summer..!
Today we are waiting for fridge to come. I mean, I am waiting because Mattia is at work. The fridge suppose to come before 15.30 so I am all excited about it. I already received two doorbells but none of them was for me.
We changed a little bit the set up of the living room, so now I can write next to the window, looking at the weather outside. And when I look at the weather.. I feel no need to go out. It's windy and quite cold, so unless we go to the gym, my butt is not in a hurry to go out.
Work is good. I've been working a lot recently. I think it is some kind of preparing me for my full time contract/schedule which will kick in with the 1st of June. It's okay, but the more I work with different colleagues, the more I see that I am not the only one who makes small mistakes. I've been always thinking that they are smarter and more carufeul. Well yeah, some of them are more experienced but I no longer blame myself for small mistakes (especially if it's busy, I have a lot of days in a row and two of them I stand alone). No complaining, just facts. So yeah, realizing things like that makes my life easier.
You know, this time the biggest issue is BatMatt's job. We have to do something about it.
It is very hard to see your man really not willing to continue doing what he's doing, but still forcing himself to do so. It is like since we came back from our small holidays. That subject needs some time and a solution. A proper solution. Of course I will do whatever it takes to help. This is the priority for now.
Sure, some nice things are happening at the time as well. We bought a vacuum cleaner so now it's a lot easier to get all the dust together, we make plans for how to finish the house with nice details, the fridge is coming (where the hell is it?), we also plan to do something nice in June as it will be a year since we know each other..
And of course- yesterday Mattia bought tickets to see The XX upcoming Monday. I mean.. Goddamn! It was very unexpected and spontaneous, I still can not believe that on Monday we will be standing in Heineken Music Hall listening to that awesome band! Mindblowing!
I am still learning how to handle my curiosity. I make mistakes, sometimes I act like my own mother which scares the hell out of me. Yesterday I've been told something that I, myself, told my mother once. More or less ''You act like a kid, it's not about who is better or who is worse, it's not a competition''. That broke me for a moment but gave me a lesson and qucikly I had to admit it to myself. Yes, I reacted like a spoiled child and no- I don't want to feel the fear that one day I will end up like my mom. I love her, but her choices will never be mine. So one more time, I apologize, I still have to learn.
Okay okay, enough of that. I gotta go, clean the place up a bit, just to do something instead of thinking about the fridge which still didn't arrive.
Have a nice day and if you can, send me some feedback about the layout and stuff.
Love,
Alicja
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