And the birds keep singing.
Sun is finally shining! Even tough it's my free day.
Nice breakfast, watching Weeds, gym, nice lunch outside, I've painted my hair.
BattMatt is chilling on the couch after work, he works really hard recently. Actually too hard I would say, but... it has to be this way for now, I guess. I'm wondering when will he notice my hair ;)
Life is funny. I've been thinking about taking up studies at inHolland University and I had that need to talk to someone who graduated from that place.
And there I am, standing at the reception with our new colleague and we start a casual chit-chat conversation. I start to talk about my idea of going back to school and boom! In my face- he went to that school, and not only did he go there- he did the same thing that I was considering, which is communication. He told me all about it and well, I am not so sure anymore.
This is one of few universities that have a full programme in English, that is why it would be my first choice- because I don't like the idea of travelling to Rotterdam every day to study.
But if he is stuck in the same place that I am, altough he already DID what I only plan to do..
So now I am even more lost that I've been before.
It seems that life has something for me, but I have to be patient about it, just pipe down, wait.
Sure, I can wait but just like Elizabeth Gilbert wrote ''I've been having this apetite for life'' and I feel that whatever it is, it has to happen soon. I just can't help that feeling.
What's more.. I could find few things but they are a bit too personal to write about them here, to open public. Mostly family issues. Ok, only family issues.
It's just.. I miss honesty between members of my family. I miss my brother, who has the courage to say ''fuck that, it's not right and I don't accept it''. I feel a bit pushed aside. Now that I am on my own and away- sure that my parent want to Skype with me- but I am really on MY own (or WE are, because thank God I share my life with a person who takes good care). My mom probably thinks about me a lot and she wishes me all the best but she doesn't want to get involved too much. It's like ''Yeah..yeaaaah, I know you are having a hard time, but me and your dad, we decided to redecorate the whole apartment so.. no, we will NOT come soon''. Screw that, I say s c r e w that! Do not expect, if you don't give, even if we are family.
It's time to do the laundry! I really don't want to but oh well, it's hard to live without clean pants.
Work? Don't ask me, please. Even when I think that I couldn't be more busy, it appears that there is still more that I should do. I am good, and sometimes I am being told that, but if there is the slightest chance to pick on something- you can be sure it will happen. And then it doesn't matter how good you were yesterday, because today, it's a new day, so please, get over it.
Salary is getting better, so I guess I need to sell myself the best I can and after that just erase it from my memory, like in Men in Black, ''it never happened''.
And not to be a bitch but I will only say that.. I'm not the only one.
Ok ok, before we all get too moody, we will go downstairs to that nice Turkish dude who owns the laundry service and get it done!
Love,
Alicja
Nice breakfast, watching Weeds, gym, nice lunch outside, I've painted my hair.
BattMatt is chilling on the couch after work, he works really hard recently. Actually too hard I would say, but... it has to be this way for now, I guess. I'm wondering when will he notice my hair ;)
Life is funny. I've been thinking about taking up studies at inHolland University and I had that need to talk to someone who graduated from that place.
And there I am, standing at the reception with our new colleague and we start a casual chit-chat conversation. I start to talk about my idea of going back to school and boom! In my face- he went to that school, and not only did he go there- he did the same thing that I was considering, which is communication. He told me all about it and well, I am not so sure anymore.
This is one of few universities that have a full programme in English, that is why it would be my first choice- because I don't like the idea of travelling to Rotterdam every day to study.
But if he is stuck in the same place that I am, altough he already DID what I only plan to do..
So now I am even more lost that I've been before.
It seems that life has something for me, but I have to be patient about it, just pipe down, wait.
Sure, I can wait but just like Elizabeth Gilbert wrote ''I've been having this apetite for life'' and I feel that whatever it is, it has to happen soon. I just can't help that feeling.
What's more.. I could find few things but they are a bit too personal to write about them here, to open public. Mostly family issues. Ok, only family issues.
It's just.. I miss honesty between members of my family. I miss my brother, who has the courage to say ''fuck that, it's not right and I don't accept it''. I feel a bit pushed aside. Now that I am on my own and away- sure that my parent want to Skype with me- but I am really on MY own (or WE are, because thank God I share my life with a person who takes good care). My mom probably thinks about me a lot and she wishes me all the best but she doesn't want to get involved too much. It's like ''Yeah..yeaaaah, I know you are having a hard time, but me and your dad, we decided to redecorate the whole apartment so.. no, we will NOT come soon''. Screw that, I say s c r e w that! Do not expect, if you don't give, even if we are family.
It's time to do the laundry! I really don't want to but oh well, it's hard to live without clean pants.
Work? Don't ask me, please. Even when I think that I couldn't be more busy, it appears that there is still more that I should do. I am good, and sometimes I am being told that, but if there is the slightest chance to pick on something- you can be sure it will happen. And then it doesn't matter how good you were yesterday, because today, it's a new day, so please, get over it.
Salary is getting better, so I guess I need to sell myself the best I can and after that just erase it from my memory, like in Men in Black, ''it never happened''.
And not to be a bitch but I will only say that.. I'm not the only one.
Ok ok, before we all get too moody, we will go downstairs to that nice Turkish dude who owns the laundry service and get it done!
Love,
Alicja
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