House; home.

Yes, I am alive! Rushing through the dust, paint brushes and freshly painted doors, to give you a small update (like anybody reads this).
First of all, we have painted to whole place white. You can not imagine how many stupid ideas did the previous owners had. All the doors and frames of the doors were literally yellow or orange.
Like, what the fuck has to come to your mind to do shit like that? White is not good enough? Or dark colour? No, heeeeell no! Let's paint everything yellow so it will match perfectly with our complicated interior design. Not to mention that they used wrong paint and that they painted on surfaces that first needed a bit of work.
Then, gentlemen created a masterpiece out of the fireplace. They used some magic and made fake bricks to fill in a hole that was one of my biggest concerns in this apartment. It looks amazing and one day I will create a ''before & after'' gallery to show you how much work did we do here.
Now we need to paint bottom corners of the walls super dark grey. Next, two walls in colour and to finish.. The floor. Somewhere in between we will have to take care of an old cabinet in the kitchen, it needs help.
All in all, feel invited to a house warming party somewhere in February.

In my last post I wrote that there is a big change coming up, something uge.
Well surprisingly, some people were asking about that.
The decision was made quite easily, altough it is a very hard decision to make.
I realize how my life will change, how it will affect everything and how hard sometimes it's gonna get.
But despite that, I know that it's what I really want. I want to try, I want to do it.
That's why me and CatMat are going to live together. He will move in.
Actually he already did. But from March it will be official, because he will have nothing to do with his old apartment anymore.
We are both aware what we are doing. At first it was only a thought in my and his head. Then my mouth spilled out something about it out loud. Next it became an idea and finally.. we decided that we want to do it.
Even my mother is not against and that is quite a big deal for me. Everyone seems ok with that idea.
Sure, friends tell us to watch out and take it easy. But we know it already. We know.
I think that we are already experiencing some ups and downs of sharing everything. But after all, we still want it.
It's so amazing to say through the phone ''see you at home'', share a bed, cook together, plan things..
It's a big step, but we will take it.

Further on.. Well at work it got a bit quiet because the season is dead. Not much to do even if you try your best to keep busy with extra work.
God, I have a short temper. People can make me really mad so easily sometimes. But never ever do I let it out in front of them, which is a good thing if I don't want to lose my job, but a bad thing if I don't want to lose my mind.
Well, I have to solve this problem. Sometimes I feel underestimated. Just sometimes I feel pushed down to earth while I think I'm doing my best. Sometimes a simple comment about how I should be careful with my Dutch knowledge can break something. Like I'm a fucking native speaker.
Ok ok, it's a lovely Sunday, keep it cool.

Anyway, do not hesitate to put comments if you read this. I will slowly go back to writing, and as soon as we will finish the house and make it a HOME, I will get back to regular writing.

Love,

xxx