Christmas time.
So this is Christmas.. It is the very first Christmas that I am going to celebrate without my parents and brother. Honestly, it feels very strange. Because when you're at home, doing the ''every-year-Christmas-routine" you don't appreciate it so much. But when you leave your nest and start a whole new life, you miss that routine, you realize that, actually, it has been one of the few certain things in life. No matter what, there was always something nice to eat at the Christmas Evening supper, always some small symbolic gifts, people around that now you miss. Sounds nostalgic? Yeah, it is.
But then.. You realize something else. The closer it gets to Christmas you find out that here you have your new family- your friends. Of course, not to mention my wonderful sister which is going through a lot these days, she gets even more stormy days than I do. But our plans for Christmas days come together only on 26th, but that's ok, that's more than good.
Anyway, what I wanted to talk about are friends. You meet up with Michelle and stick stickers to the wall, maybe not perfectly straight but awesome, she goes for cigarettes and she comes back with wooden spoons as a gift for you, you put on ''All I want for Christmas is you'' and you sing along altough you can't sing that well. Then you meet André and his polish girlfriend. You go with them for a dinner, talk, laugh, enjoy good mood. Then you are sitting at the table in restaurant Venezia, you look to your left side and you see that wonderful man who is smiling to you. You can see the smile even in his eyes. And you get that nice, warm feeling. At that moment you stop to worry that you're so far away from home. Because you are building a new one, together. I have never felt so amazing. You can't actually stop smiling to yourself when you think about it. You start to plan your own Christmas Evening, with some replacements of typical Christmas dishes, you do it because you know that from now on- you will have to live like that. And in the end- you enjoy it!
You write your first Christmas cards, you receive ones, you care about the atmopshere and feel strange without a Christmas tree.
Recently I am busy with another thought in my head. Something big is about to happen, there will come a big change in my life, well, not only mine. Totally different from what it was before. The excitement moves my whole body, goes through every nerve, gets under my skin. And I'm happy, and I'm hoping for the best.
And as I already told you a month ago- end of the world was a bullshit.
So, because we're still here, I want to wish you a very merry Christmas, wherever you are, whatever you do, however you are going to celebrate it. Be happy this time of year, don't be afraid to be emotional, it's ok, it's a part of our lives, it makes us human beings.
Lots of love people!
xxx
But then.. You realize something else. The closer it gets to Christmas you find out that here you have your new family- your friends. Of course, not to mention my wonderful sister which is going through a lot these days, she gets even more stormy days than I do. But our plans for Christmas days come together only on 26th, but that's ok, that's more than good.
Anyway, what I wanted to talk about are friends. You meet up with Michelle and stick stickers to the wall, maybe not perfectly straight but awesome, she goes for cigarettes and she comes back with wooden spoons as a gift for you, you put on ''All I want for Christmas is you'' and you sing along altough you can't sing that well. Then you meet André and his polish girlfriend. You go with them for a dinner, talk, laugh, enjoy good mood. Then you are sitting at the table in restaurant Venezia, you look to your left side and you see that wonderful man who is smiling to you. You can see the smile even in his eyes. And you get that nice, warm feeling. At that moment you stop to worry that you're so far away from home. Because you are building a new one, together. I have never felt so amazing. You can't actually stop smiling to yourself when you think about it. You start to plan your own Christmas Evening, with some replacements of typical Christmas dishes, you do it because you know that from now on- you will have to live like that. And in the end- you enjoy it!
You write your first Christmas cards, you receive ones, you care about the atmopshere and feel strange without a Christmas tree.
Recently I am busy with another thought in my head. Something big is about to happen, there will come a big change in my life, well, not only mine. Totally different from what it was before. The excitement moves my whole body, goes through every nerve, gets under my skin. And I'm happy, and I'm hoping for the best.
And as I already told you a month ago- end of the world was a bullshit.
So, because we're still here, I want to wish you a very merry Christmas, wherever you are, whatever you do, however you are going to celebrate it. Be happy this time of year, don't be afraid to be emotional, it's ok, it's a part of our lives, it makes us human beings.
Lots of love people!
xxx
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