Just because I can.

I am too complicated even for myself.
First I decide not to do things,, then I do them anyway.
I say ''yes'' when I'm thinking ''no''.
I hesitate when I really want something.
I spin around trying to avoid things that I want to happen to me.
I brake promises, which I made to myself.
I trust strangers, get bored with the most exciting things.
Fall out when I didn't even fell in.


Is it okay?

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